E tenebras, lux dormiens

So for this, am I d_____

I yet still feel some sort of prudence washing upon me that puts such fire in an effect to cancel out my passion. It, my passion, shall not succeed, though I fear that I will lose all its, of my prudence, manners by the end of my days. O, come what would, but Shame has such unpleasant face!

What personalities shall I have, that I seek to find, only to learn the sluttish manners in that they may proceed. This calm of reasoning above passion shall reign dominant and supreme until that day comes. What will happen? I do not know, and I will not proceed to find out more. O, such a ringing in my ear, like some contorted ballet, endless, repetitive, but that demon Shame and its constituents in all their ugly pomps!

I yearn to prove that my supplication is not in vain, but request made of God is duly answered in His own time. If so, when might I receive it and prove unto the populace that I am not dodgy. O, that acceptance may come soon, to battle back that Shame, with wicked, smiling face, who is such a villain in the plot!

O, Shame! I banish thee! Thou art banished! From my mind, from the room, from the house, from the world! If only such thing was possible, that we would not feel Shame's effect upon the most gratuitous, that coupled with envy, says pretty much nothing at all. And that is what Shame wants, total silence, total paralysis, such panic that we all must freeze, or find ways to deny, avert, or flee, flee, flee far from home to a place where no one knows your name, cares about you, so that you may live life in peace. O, Shame, if I keep silence, then you have won! But I will bless the light and scorn the darkness, when I can finally declare bitter victory against you, after so many long years! O, Shame! You do not deserve the worthiness to be put upon the page, to waste bits and bytes, and yet, to do not so would in effect give Shame his/her/its greatest moment of power, whose arts have been mastered!

O, Shame, Indecence, Obscenity, you find your last days among us! After you have ravaged all the sins presented in Christian Book, you come to hide behind us in the coming days of . . .

I enjoy upheavals; and it's high time that the nation, and the world, is due for them.