E tenebras, lux dormiens

Anyway, where I spent on Christmas Day was at my aunt's house. We drove there to have a Christmas Lunch, because her husband, being a nurse, has to work from 3 p.m. to midnight. Then we watched a movie, Seabiscuit, before we finally played MahJong Note: We don't play the game by this rule exactly (in the sense of following the rules to the letter), but it just gives information on the game. You may know better rules (especially with pictures) elsewhere. Finally, we ate dinner at a fancy restaurant. Yes, the Chinese restaurants are still open on Christmas Day.

I got Lord of The Rings: Return of the King and Kingdom Hearts for Christmas, which were of course, what I chose. There's no sense in having surprises for Christmas because I doubt the Magi intended Christmas to be presented in this manner. The manner being that you never know what you're going to get for Christmas, but you've given a lot of hints, and yet, you never did get what you want, so you wound up scrunching your face between three emotions: disappointment, fury, shock, all the while trying to show their evil twins: approval, happiness, surprise.

I have been trying to draft a list of New Year's Resolutions, without much success. They reflect the previous resolutions, but I've decided to change them so the expectations won't be so extreme. Great things are accomplished from the tiniest steps.

So, a primo, the things I would like to do next year are to go to QSA meeting, regardless of whom I might encounter; volunteer at CSDF during the summer; find internships for Biochemistry and/or Environmental Science; create a video diary using ASL, and finally to be supervisors at the Deaf camp.

I'd been meaning to volunteer to the Deaf camp, but I was taking classes during the summer that did not end until late August, and the camp starts in the middle of that month. So I can try to find internships instead, and get some work experience in whichever majors I might be interested in.

I was taking a shower last night, when I felt a pang of guilt. It is a guilt I've felt almost each time I enjoy having myself douched in hot water. I dwelled on the fact that there are people not capable of enjoying the same privileges as I am. I dwelled on the fact that hot water will run out in 2008, or whatever the UN happened the place the date of the reckoning.

People change when they wake up. I don't know whether I've reached that stage yet, but last week, I noticed myself being distinctly different from last year, from years past. It is as if I am regressing to a second childhood, with the adulthood in observance.