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"From the darkness, sleeping light." Formerly luminus dormiens. Lux pacis, light of peace.
Quote: "Sometimes I think the surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that none of it has tried to contact us." --Bill Watterson, cartoonist, Calvin and Hobbes
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When I write I often sound like I'm stilted. I don't think I use that many big words in real life, and if I do, it's only to impress, but not to show who I am.
I know that I am trying to find myself. I don't even know that I am looking for myself, but many people in my life have told me to do that. So what am I supposed to look for? Sometimes I would rather leave it to someone else, to God perhaps. Let Fates have happened to me what they want to have happened.
To find myself, I must be defined by others. Because without other people, I am nothing, just a senseless being. Without my mother, I could not be me. Without my step-father, I could not be me. Without my real father, my family, my friends, I am not who I am.
Although I am a thinking person, and more than a sum of all that have nurtured me, and of all that nature has defined in the blueprint of me, without such parts, how can you add? I just looked up on google, "word for whole being more than sum of parts," and I have found that word, synergy.
I know that I am trying to find myself. I don't even know that I am looking for myself, but many people in my life have told me to do that. So what am I supposed to look for? Sometimes I would rather leave it to someone else, to God perhaps. Let Fates have happened to me what they want to have happened.
To find myself, I must be defined by others. Because without other people, I am nothing, just a senseless being. Without my mother, I could not be me. Without my step-father, I could not be me. Without my real father, my family, my friends, I am not who I am.
Although I am a thinking person, and more than a sum of all that have nurtured me, and of all that nature has defined in the blueprint of me, without such parts, how can you add? I just looked up on google, "word for whole being more than sum of parts," and I have found that word, synergy.
